Becoming acquainted and prepared

If it hasn't been apparent from my lack of ability to 
write and update my blog, things have definitely started to pick up. For a few days I definitely felt like I nothing else to add because I was kind of just doing little things here and there trying to just be patient and wait for staff to arrive. The past 2 weeks and have been about preparing myself for a summer full of fun and excitement, but also one of fear, frustration and exhaustion. Anyone who knows me, knows that I am somewhat more reserved than some people, I don't speak up as much in large groups, but really thrive in conversation with those in smaller group settings or even one on one. Last summer I really forced myself and learned how to be, lets say, more extroverted. I have realized that there are times in my life where I simply need to overcome my own personality and throw myself out there. Camp is one of those places or communities where it is essential to build relationships as fast as possible. I will only have 8 weeks to build relationships and minister to these staff members. I know that in general it takes me more time to develop or friendship that is able to go deeper and therefore just have to force myself way out of my comfort zone. I am not allowed to just sit by and wait for people to introduce themselves to me or ask me questions.

So, I have spent these last 2 weeks trying to get to know the sailing staff that are already here and just pray for the strength and energy to develop deeper relationships more quickly than normal.
Another big thing I have been praying about this summer so far is just my need to be open to a different way of doing things. I really feel like God might be calling me towards this sort of camp and retreat ministry. I am still unsure, but camp ministry has had a huge impact on my life and walk of faith. After conversations with my old camp directors and the field ed. office at Duke, I realize how important it would be for me to broaden my perspective on what camp is. Camp at Don Lee is almost in every way, completely opposite from my experience. I know exactly how camp works at Warren W. Willis in Florida, but my experience so far is very narrow. My struggle so far has been in understanding and grasping concepts that I don't necessarily agree with or would do differently. Not that they do things wrong here or theologically unsound, but it is just different than I am used to. Restructuring my way of thinking has been a challenge for me. I want this place to become a place that I can also call "home", just like I do Warren W. Willis.

Camp is really all about the kids. It always will be and that will never change. But, for me, and especially this summer more than any other, I try to focus on the counselors. These are late high school and college students who have come here to have fun, to play with kids, to sail, and to be in a place they love. My goal is to help them see beyond all that to see the opportunity that they themselves have for personal spiritual growth while here. We used to say at WWW that our counselor ministry is the best and most intentional college ministry in the world. I honestly feel like there is no greater opportunity to help develop the spiritual lives of our college students than while they are at camp. It is a time when we can be intentional every single day about our spiritual lives. These counselors are spending 23 hours a day with campers. They are feeding into their lives, mentoring them, being their friend, talking with them, and loving on them. They are the real ministers here at camp. It isn't the directors, the year round staff, but the counselors or the ones interacting with the kids on the ground level. I could never meet every kid, and neither will the directors or other staff. But, if we reach into the lives of our counselors to help them with spiritual development through personal practices or simply being available then we can allow God to speak through us in a new way.

One thing that we as the worship team (mainly Melissa), have done for the staff was to create a space that is theirs. There is a building down by the river that is supposed to be a chapel, but was really nothing more than a glorified meeting space/ storage room. The faded washed out pink walls were horrendous. There were spider webs, dust and just a bunch of random things that didn't seem to have found their proper place. Melissa made it her mission to not only clean it out, but to re-envision what it means to have a place of worship as a staff member. A place of prayer. After some cleaning the decision was made that we desperately needed to paint the chapel. It is amazing how transformative a layer of primer and two layers of paint can be. The room instantly went from being a unbearable sight of washed out pink to a place of serenity and calm. We have now added, rugs, floor pillows and an altar made out of driftwood (made by Will Cooper). There are contemplative prayer sources, bibles, and we hope to have candles and music playing. This will be a place to rest, sleep if needed (it has A/C), and to connect with God.